This Way to the Easy Life

I apologize for the delay, been sorting things out, trying to figure out what the next step is. Been applying for stop gap jobs in various locations. Wrote a unique sort of vampire novel in December...and the van broke down. She has 162,000 miles and is fourteen years old, breakdowns are expected. The thing is, my instincts are telling me this issue (flashing check engine light) is new symptom of the electrical issue I've been having for two years. I still owe around $2500 on her. She is relatively worthless as a trade in seeing as I converted her to live out of it. So...what is the most I spend on repairs? $1000? How long until a new electrical issue comes up? I can't finance a new vehicle (good credit but unemployed) but I could buy something used for $3000-$6000.

This is life; you own a car you will have car problems. Let's move on.

A few days ago I was experiencing acute loneliness. My awareness of how alone I was/am was actually causing me anxiety. Even if I had the means to continue traveling, I need to interact with people more. My mental health depends on being more social which is part reason why, once I sort out these car issues, I will be returning to the stick and brick world, getting a job, a place, and taking dance classes and playing music live.

In the end, there is no easy life. Well, mine is totally easy compared to those poor people in Gaza. But, relatively speaking, an easy life does not exist. I want to travel, I want to go out on the road again at some point, but for now I need to sort out the social side of my life. Again, I apologize for being lax about this blog, I am just working towards whatever the next step for me is.